Pensieve

Remember when Dumbledore stated to Harry “I sometimes find, and I am sure you know the feeling, that I simply have too many thoughts and memories crammed into my mind.” Well I entirely understand and truly wish that I had a pensieve. Today I got in such a state of stress over jobs it was ridiculous. Let’s just say it’s incredibly frustrating when you search Visual Merchandising jobs and yield only sales assistant & store manager positions. I believe that is not what I searched for. So here’s a niche idea for any business orientated people- a visual merchandising recruitment agency. This would be truly wonderful.
Tip of the day: If you’re anything like me- a major stress head, it’s so important you find a release, otherwise you end up wasting the entire day, creating even more stress! In risk of sounding cliche, music works for me, but it may be yoga, puzzles or simply writing a list, although the latter is usually another form of procrastination, inducing even more worry.
ENTHUSIASM LEVEL: overwhelmed.

Wireless Detox

During the holidays I usually get into a routine: wake up, eat breakfast, have an hour or two of free time, (generally on the computer), then attempt to make a dent in the homework pile. It’s been three weeks and so far the bite I have made into it, is more of a nibble. Nonetheless slowly I’m getting through it.

However each morning as I get out my homework, I am faced with the same third world problem, PC? Laptop? Ipad? Or good old-fashioned paper & pen? Although let’s be honest, the latter is not often my first choice. Our generation has been blessed with these choices, each with their vices and virtues, but I have to admit juggling between them is becoming overwhelming and somewhat a task in itself. Recently I have noticed how often I have jumped onto the computer to whip up some thumbnails, something I used to enjoy doing by hand. Or flicked through the Ipad to brainstorm ideas, forgetting to scratch up the beloved mind maps I used to create. Furthermore I don’t even think I have picked up a pen to write more than a birthday card greeting in over six months. This, you could say, is somewhat unhealthy and what’s more I waste time messing between them. I will start on one computer, then after some time; grow weary of the ‘scenery’ and move to the Ipad or the laptop. Then I realise I forgot to save my work to Drop Box so have to switch back. It’s exhausting and oddly increasing my stress levels. My brain feels scattered, once I was able to pick up a folio and say ‘Ok, this is what I have done so far,’ now if I need to gather my work, it takes half an hour or so until I finally collect it all together, (although this could say something about my organisation system.)

However organisational skills aside, I am going to go on a technology detox; no Ipad, computer or laptop use for homework over the next week. This is no excuse not to do homework; I must complete the same amount I would have done otherwise. But I need to get back in touch with paper and pen! With the likes of Photoshop at my fingertips, I fear I have lost the ability to draw. I mean why draw when I can get my ideas looking like the real deal? But that’s not the point, I need a break from them all and so do my eyes, even now my screen is too bright, it’s causing me to squint, despite the fact it’s on the lowest brightness, (again, this may be my eye site at fault but not the point.)

Funnily enough, I have no issues with mobile phones, somehow I skipped out on that obsession, my phone only used to make the occasional phone call. So mobile phones= ok, but I will attempt this one week detox of the other trio and hopefully it will not only reunite me with my lost sketch book but lower my stress levels. Regrettably I have been distracted yet again by technology; I’m supposed to be doing homework, so back to the books for me, literally, for the first time in a long time.

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120 HOURS

The enormous fog of stress and irritation that burdened me for too long is gone! Days and days of worry and tears, of irrational anger and butterflies, lifted within a ridiculously quick 15 minute test (not that I am complaining.) It is bizarre looking back now, the enormity of the stress I bottled in the days leading up to my drivers test and though the last few days  before hand were among the worst of my life (I have lived a very blessed life,) the entire pressure of achieving the 120 hours has been a burden I carried for far too long. One cannot begin to comprehend the relief I feel. Never again do I have to take down an odometer reading or reverse parallel park for ‘fun.’ Never again will I have to fill in that blasted logbook or  “mirror, indicate , head check”, although hopefully I do, because I certainly don’t ever won’t to loose my licence or be in an accident.
The funny thing is that I don’t particularly care for driving and I am in no real hurry to get out and drive around, relishing my new found freedom, though one is definitely not quite as free without a car. No it’s just that I finally feel I have achieved something within my 19, nearly 20 years. Sure I have achieved some good grades and have done some work I’m really proud of, but I feel like I haven’t really achieved any of those major right of passages. But now I have! Yes I have passed my drivers test, a feat I never believed possible! Not because I am a terrible driver, but because I am a realist, (or really a pessimist in denial), and felt there were so many things that could result in instant failure; incorrect logbook, hitting a kerb or worse another car, not that I have ever done that but still.
What I have learnt from this “right of passage?” That I need to relax, the hours of stress I put in to such things is ridiculous and though I am super uber happy I passed, after the test I just felt normal again- one just doesn’t get the same amount of relief and joy as stress, so really it’s not worth it because no one likes a snappy, teary sad sack.
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(I do not own this image, full credit to the original photographer)

Teamwork for introverts

TEAMWORK. The word that can strike fear in a heart or result in excessive joy.

As more of an introvert than extrovert, it certainly isn’t one of my favourite words. The announcement of it propels a wave of discomfort and the revival of an ingrained shyness, that causes me to second guess my ideas. And whilst extroverts can be the perfect cover for asking the questions you don’t want to and who will certainly relieve the awkwardness of a silent classroom, it is intimidating to voice ideas to them. However when one, not just realises, but practices, that your idea is just a valid as anyone else’s, and furthermore that others too are equally important, I feel teamwork has its place.

Working in teams, we recently received our first industry project: concepts to be created and presented in teams, the chosen concept to be undertaken as a class. To my surprise our teams concept was chosen and though I am pleased, I am quite nervous, the pressure to pull off what is questionably quite a challenge for a project due in two weeks, makes my stomach churn. And yes, while we will have a large group working on it, the pressure of not letting the rest of the class down is uncomfortable. Note; my bigger fear is the display falling down and seriously maiming someone, but lets hope this is just the fears of a overactive imagination.

But its not all doom and worry, as today I did have one small hooray moment- I was actually able to express my thoughts and even lead a little, a massive step for me. Perhaps all these group projects and dare I say it, dreaded oral presentations, are beginning to pay off? (Secretly I hope this is not the case, just so I can disprove every person who has ever told you it is beneficial to give the wretched speeches.) So after today I admit I am feeling better about it all, we certainly have brainstormed a lot about how we can successfully pull it off and the project has already taught me a few lessons.

#1.Consider the timeline before developing an overambitious concept, certainly it will look great if it works, but it puts significant strain on ones nerves. #2. Measurements and scale are your new best friends. Ensure you always have the correct ones before presenting a concept, otherwise it will create a lot of stress and negative feelings behind the scenes. I’m sure there will be a few going home tonight cursing us a little. #3. Make sure this project comes together to create an ace promotion! (Otherwise they will all quietly hate you.)

Wish us luck! Shall keep you posted.
teamwork(I do not own this image, it is beautiful, unfortunately I cannot find who captured it but full credit to them)